omg-god

So I have the camera, I have been taking and selling some pictures, the only other things I need are: a bigger lens, photoshop cs4, motovation, and a studio room to take pictures of people!!!!!!!!!! Of course I also need to get some motivation to drawing and writing more as well...

So, even though recently I have just actually been making progress with my photography, like I will actually be selling some stuff! I still seem to be having a difficult time, this is just not my year luck wise, I don't know what it is. Almost seems like the Gods are cursing me or playing cruel jokes on me, like fate does not want me to write because I continuously seem to be losing things very important to me. First when I had my car broken into it was my flash drive and all my school stuff, then I lost the flash drive I bought to replace the first one (with all my writing on it) then I lost my bike chain! NOW, I lost a notebook that I hav

I'm getting ready to really really step out into the world. I'm headed into my second year of college and after that I'm suppose to be transfering. I haven't even entierly decided where yet because I'm too nervouse about making the wrong choice. Either way, all the school I'm looking at are in a state where I have absolutly no friends or family, It is frightenting to say the least. I'm going to need to buck up and make a choice here soon though, because I need to start looking for a job in whatever state I chose to go too as well so that I can afford school. Ugg... Can I just crawl back into my corner and not have to do anything ever aga